Not Much.

I'd like to stop thinking of the present, as in right now, as some minor insignificant preamble to something else.

thats it.

Finding meaning in something meaningless

I'm sprawled on my bed, my computer carefully balanced between my pillows. Its 12:52 on a friday night, but not any friday night. The LAST DAY of school friday night. I got home about 20 minutes ago and jumped into the shower, rinsing off the chlorine from the pool party i had just gotten home from, and was then immediately greeted by an angry mother. so it goes. but that was then. and this is now. and right now my headphones are blasting Girltalk into my eardrums, the Jonas brothers are staring up at me from the Seventeen magazine cover, and my yearbook is laying lonesomely on my floor, its pages being blown around randomly as my fan pumps oxygen through my small bedroom. 

I still cant believe this school year is over. It all went by so fast. One minute I'm walking into a brand new class, and the next minute I'm being thrown into a pool in celebration of another year gone by. 

I was planning on going on a Short speel about being 15, and how my mom shouldn't expect me to be in anything different, but i decided that's a bit too overdone. 

Life is spinning by. or, high school at least. 

i cant believe I'm a JUNIOR.

baller. 

will attempt to get some sleep now. o wait...it's summer. so on second thought, no i wont!

My Sonnet To Summer

Salty waves crash against the shore

Sand seems to glimmer off of the sun

I hate the cold water, yet go in for more

Our feet stick to the ground as we run

Homework never has to be done

No need for teachers, lockers, or chores

The only rule is to have fun

I leave behind soda cans and apple cores

 

The warm air opens and cleanses my pores

There is no need for worries or stress

The rain never stops our adventures outdoors

I always wear a bathing suit under my dress

 

Summer seems so far away

I wish it were summer everyday

the World Wide Web of possibilties

The Department of Psychology, at New York University recently released a study on all the negative aspects of the Internet. The cyber dangers, children’s overexposure, and the ease in which people are able to access information they haven’t worked for.

These same people seem to be forgetting the reasons the Internet was invented in the first place. We have the power to connect with people on the other side of the world. We can spread ideas, share cultures, and inform ourselves more than ever before. The world’s capabilities have been handed to us on a silver platter. These possibilities are all at our fingertips, literally a click away. But now that we have access to these amazing opportunities, many seem to be drawing back in fear, reluctant to change and adapt to the new technologies that now our fill our homes.

The Internet is woven into our lives, and we have grown to be dependant on it. Dependency on the Internet is not a bad thing. We are as dependent on the Internet in the same ways we are dependent on electricity, money, and education. Dependency is not threatening, it’s stabilizing, and the more accessible things we can depend on, the more stable our world will become.

  As we converge into a web and media based world, some old comforts may become scarce, such as newspapers. Newspapers are not dead, but are slowly changing into more web-based sources of information. They are transforming to keep up with our fast paced society. Many people are resisting this change. Change alters our lives and forces us to readjust, which can be scary, but is an essential part of growth in our society.

The Internet is often to blame for corrupting youth. Yet, the Internet is not a human being with emotions and schemes. It is a technology that enables us to take advantage of it. It is dependent on us whether we use these advantages in a positive or negative way. ‘Corrupting the youth’, lies completely on us. Some people will exploit the resources offered, but we must trust that the larger majority of people will use the Internet for what it was created for, the betterment of mankind.

The average teenager spends 31 hours a week online, and although this statistic stirs fear in many parents, it’s actually quite comforting. The MacArthur Foundation recently published a study on the effects of the Internet on young adults.

“Their participation is giving them the technological skills and literacy they need to succeed in the contemporary world.” Said Mizuko Ito, the leader of the study.  “They’re learning how to get along with others, how to manage a public identity, and how to create a home page.”

Social networking websites have not eliminated human contact with each other. On the contrary, they have merely made it easier to stay in contact with more people. People are buying more and more commodities online, which helps the environment by reducing the amount of pollution created driving, and reduces the use of paper and plastic bags. Information is accessible to people regardless of race or economic standing, thanks to the Internet provided at public libraries and schools. Online, we can educate ourselves on topics we’re passionate about. We can become published writers. We can share our photos and videos with the world. We can submerge ourselves in new cultures, ideas, and lifestyles. We can open our minds, and try to better understand different beliefs and customs. Maybe we are over exposed, because we’re no longer confined to the boundaries our own societies place around us. We have been given the power to enhance our lives for the better. Whether we choose to do so, is up to us. 

A Villian if a Villainelle

Blood pumps love through my heart

But my love cannot find a place to go

I search for meaning inside my art

 

Your love seems to hit me like a dart

But my mind is confused and wandering so

Blood pumps love through my heart

 

What is the point of a brain and a heart

In this game of life we’ve learned to know

I search for meaning inside my art

 

Tell me I'm pretty; tell me I’m smart

Convince me that our love will grow

Blood pumps love through my heart

 

But how can I be sure that once we start

Your heart will not find someplace else to go

I search for meaning inside my art

 

I am assured that you will not part

Your love is the arrow, my heart is the bow

Blood pumps love through my heart

I search for meaning inside my art

Poems Seep Into My Mind When I'm Sleepy (see, even that sounded poetic)

An old hammock

Strung from the bark of a branch to the root of a neighboring tree

Its rough fabric pressing into the bare of your back

Engulfing your small body in its open arms

The long strands of overgrown grass and weeds below

Tickle your dangling feet

The hammock sways ever so slightly

Resisting the wind

Wind, that is all you can hear

Unless you are able to open your ears wide enough to hear the ant

Scurrying along a tree

Or a slug slithering along the sidewalk

Leaving a fresh trail of slime behind him

But all you need to hear is the wind

And the grass as it whispers secrets to your feet

Should be sleeping..

I am awake against my consent, anxiously awaiting an email that could very well determine my grade in AP world history. So i have to stay up and wait until that email arrives, and i decided to spend this time blogging; something i've been meaning to do for a while now but haven't been able to make time for. 

TIme to ramble about life, log off, check my email, log back in and probably post again. just watch. 

I went to a Black kids concert! it was AWESOME. if you don't know who they are check them out at myspace.com/blackidsrock

there an american indie rock band from Jacksonville, Florida, and they're starting 

to build up quite a fan base. One of my best friends seems to have a knack for picking out musicians before they get big (she had me listening to Kid Cudi months ago) and I went to the concert with her, so i have a feeling that Black Kids are on their way to stardom as well. 

get their music on itunes (i recommend i'm not gonna teach your boyfriend how to dance with you) and watch their vids on youtube. 

the Sunbears performed as the opening and they were also very good. myspace.com/sunbears

Apart from concerting, I was in a fashion show :) That was lots of fun, but seemed to give me another reason to procrastinate on all the other homework that seems to have popped up these last two weeks of school. 

But i shouldn't be too hard on myself. I have been doing a pretty good job keeping on top of all my school work, and im getting better at the whole procrastinating thing that seems to be woven into my subconcious.

TWO WEEKS LEFT.

ahhh

i have been so exhausted recently. i swear, if this email doesnt show up soon, i may pass out befre it gets here. that wouldnt be good. 

must wake up.